ngs are moving oddly. my thoughts are Not as collected. I have the pills but i don't know how effective they are anymore. i've been trying to take one a Day. i dont really know what a day is anymore. i have clocks but i don't think they go the same speed all the time.

i'm kind of scared but at the same time i'm not. i want to go home so much. it hurts To think I may be Trapped here and may not go back to Normal ever again. i want to cry but i cant. the longer i am here, the less i care. i havent been able to thINKstraigHT sinc i postEd the lASt video. it istill my room in a way, i can pretend i'm home. sometimes the tall man stands in my room and watches me. sometimes he gets closer and i go to sleep and forget for a while. sometimes the shadow stands behind him and whispers and my Head hurts.

i cant let them get to me though. i just have to pretend i'm home. i'm at home and the sun is shining and adam is going to call me to come out tonight and stacy is okay and karen is okay and i am okay he is getting closer.