ngs are moving oddly. my thoughts are Not as collected. I have the pills but i don't know how effective they are anymore. i've been trying to take one a Day. i dont really know what a day is anymore. i have clocks but i don't think they go the same speed all the time.

i'm kind of scared but at the same time i'm not. i want to go home so much. it hurts To think I may be Trapped here and may not go back to Normal ever again. i want to cry but i cant. the longer i am here, the less i care. i havent been able to thINKstraigHT sinc i postEd the lASt video. it istill my room in a way, i can pretend i'm home. sometimes the tall man stands in my room and watches me. sometimes he gets closer and i go to sleep and forget for a while. sometimes the shadow stands behind him and whispers and my Head hurts.

i cant let them get to me though. i just have to pretend i'm home. i'm at home and the sun is shining and adam is going to call me to come out tonight and stacy is okay and karen is okay and i am okay he is getting closer.

I'm stuck in here. I've been stuck in here for a long time. i can't get out. this is my own room. but it's Different.

It's been dark since I got here. There is nothing outtsidee the window.I've opened it but there is nothing. I  do not feel air moving. do I even Need air? i don't need food. I haven't eatEN since I got here. i have not had Water to drink. i don't need it, yet. i haven't wanted it.

i don'

't know how Long I've been here. i think maybe a couple weeks, but it could be a month or more.there is electricity. the lights work, my computer workls. i don't know if the itnernwt works. I'm going to try to post this, but i am not sre if it will go through.

 my door does not open. i do not know if there is anything outside it, but it will not open. ive tried So hard to open it. It won't move. i;m trapped, but i think i'm okay for now.

 thi